Miss Lisa and Miss Atay
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
hey! i miss you. we should start using this thang again.
Wednesday, December 03, 2003
so how is everything with you? not much goin on with me. same stuff. waiting til the semester is over. i'm in school right now, trying to study for my final in a few hours, but being on a computer distracts me. it gets me kinda ehh... depressed. haha. i want to be freeeeeeeeee. oh did i tell you i work now? i'm working at Millenium Mall at a shop called "Designer's Affair" selling perfume, skin care products, and lingerie. haha. it's this new in door flea market type of mall on Hollywood and 441- it just opened up last month. anyway, my dad's friend and his wife own the shop so i work whenever hours. it's cool so i get to make a little cash for the holidays. well, thats it for now, ttyls!
Sunday, November 23, 2003
alright lis, i need your opinion on this one.
i was talking to zel online and he wasn't buying it (of course not)- xavy was sitting right beside him on the computer, so he was under the influence. but i told him this.
i don't think florida should make it a big incentive to go to national conferences anymore because we have state conferences.
we hardly get even half of florida to go to national conferences. having to go to conferences once a year leaves us caught up with "yfc usa" - and from last conference, it wasn't that worth it. not "pastorally." i mean, what did we really get with yfc usa? the conference this year united yfc florida. but it didn't unite us with the whole country. and that's a good thing. no one cares about being united with the country. especially if we can hardly get united ourselves. we have too much florida to claim.
if anything, a "one nation under God" national conference should be like every 5 years. if we didn't have to go to a national conference in another 5 years, wed have a WHOLE LOTTA time and could bring a WHOLE LOTTA people to a nationals when it was time. we're youth. we don't have that much time for preconferences, state conferences, national conferences every year. it's not even necessary. it's almost as if the ftws wana make it so that if you miss the national conference, you're basically off the whole pastoral track. but what got accomplished with last years national conference? nothing much, if u ask me.
i think if we just concentrate on our annual state conferences, we could concentrate on the real deal. mission and community. that way our talks could be centered on REAL conference talks on growth and enlightenment. it would keep us from using propaganda as motivation. "one nation under God" - it's not even flying here. we are one nation, but it doesn't do much for us. i think youth are smarter than that and want more than that. at least we are and we do.
we need to concentrate on things like youth camps, retreats around the state, missions around the region, etc. for an extended amount of time. that's the way to claim the land Christ's. the national conference consumes unnecessary time and effort and money.
state conferences- we could have special speakers help give talks. we could get old members back. and it would be an enlightening experience for everyone.
what do you think?
Thursday, November 13, 2003
haha. you know why it wasn't appearing? you clicked "post" instead of "post and publish"!
haaaaay. things are cool with me. trying to finish (or actually, trying to start) my paper. i'm in school, but i can't concentrate. lisa, i'm bored. i'm pretty bored. i mean, with life. there's nothing exciting. there's nothing i'm doing really. i just live. go to school. read. write. contemplate. process. go to mass. and like, i'm doing good and everything. but i'm not really busy busy with much. i could do more. like work out. pick up a new hobby. maybe it's cuz i'm not serving.
oh, but it's such a drag. i don't feel particularly compelled to do anything. i don't know what to do really. i mean, yfc is handling themselves. sfc is handling themselves. i know we have region missions to do, but we haven't planned too much for that yet. honestly, i feel like leaving. haha. i mean, just for a few months. like, an exchange program. and i looked into that, but its something i won't get to do until like next next semester just cuz i missed a few deadlines. so that's not really an option right now. salman thinks i should just hang around and not transfer cuz i'm like almost done. he's right. but i duno. i feel like i'm searching for something.
how bout you just move back and we could do some serious work up in here. haha. jeff's still my partner in crime with whatever i wana do, but it's not enough to just be willing, u know? i think i need some spice in my life. i'm content, but i get kinda bored. maybe i should be doing something. blah blah. okay. haha.
Wednesday, October 15, 2003
hey lis =)
can u scan the pic we took at the masquerade ball? i'll type more later, i gota take a shower and do a few things. haha. okay ttyls muah love you.
Sunday, September 28, 2003
not christmas. i'm heading up to jersey the day after. i am spending my bday with him tho since thats the day of the wedding. i might be singing too! i guess u can call him my date for the wedding. we're going together. so i guess that's considered a date. and am i prepared for people to talk? well, i'd rather not be a part of the gossip. but i did think about it for a couple days and he and i did talk about that (u know, about me staying at his house with him and his family) and my conclusion IIIIIIIIS.... i don't care. it's my life. yfcers don't even know me anyway, u know? his mom said it was cool for me to stay with them. all that i'm concerned with is that my parents know (which isn't too much of a concern cuz they really don't care half the time. but i did tell them and yeap they dont care haha). he and i talked about it and we both agreed we're comfortable and it's the way to go. and my best friends see it as okay too.... so thats basically my whole world right there!
Saturday, September 27, 2003
hey lis :) well, i've been good. been busy with school and doing my own thang here. iv'e been home a lot just writing and playing guitar. jojo bought me an electric guitar last week!!!!! but i still have sucky amp... but i should be getting a nice big one soon... hopefully from my parents. so i've been playing more.
ben enrolled me for 12 1-hour GUITAR LESSONS. he sent a letter in the mail showing i was enrolled. i was really excited!!!!! but by the end of the day i called him and told him i couldnt take it. so the usual- he keeps insisting we're just friends... and i think he thinks he's just doing it from the goodness of his heart. but i don't want to take advantage of a brother like that, yanno? sigh. i was really excited about it too. it's aaaaaall good. hehe. anyway, when my bro bought me the guitar the next week i felt like it was my reward for my noble attempt. haha.
i bought my ticket for december- for becky and jared's wedding. i'm flying into jersey and then salman and i are gona drive to ohio. i believe it's an 8 hour drive. after, i'm gona spend a couple days there with him and his family... and then come home before new years eve... and hopefully he can come home with me for about a week or so....
things with salman are really great. oh lis. =) i'm so... satisfied. it's not only about him that i feel so satisfied with... but it's like he fits so right in my life. you know that whole shpeal about not getting into a relationship right now because of not being ready... well, that is what it looks like when we just put it into words to simplify it... but we're taking time. it's not so much about "waiting" or "holding out"... it's more like we're just taking it day by day, being in each other's lives and going about our lives that way. we know what precautions to take. but there are no defined lines and boundries. i can't stand lines and boundries.
you know me, i don't like it how people are friends and then they "go out" and begin to date or court and then it just gets so STUPID cuz they end up treating each other differently... they end up pursuing love and making things happen just so that the "relationship" matches the "title"... and that's why i could never commit bc no one has ever understood that I NEED SPACE. and that I WILL NEED SPACE FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. i just can't work with guys who don't get that. i always end up feeling suffocated... like i can't live MY life. i always thought it was a bad trait, bc i end up looking like i don't know how to "commit." but i've decided it's not a flaw, and it's just who i am. i don't think it's realistic to start doing certain things just bc it SEEMS like the right time for it...
but that's what i love about me and salman... that understanding. letting things unravel for themselves... not pushing it... not containing it. he's the same way about space and living life. we were on the phone talking about it for hours a couple nights ago. we were talking being a hopeless romantic. and i told him- it seems like being a so-called hopeless romantic is a bad thing bc of the emotional rollercoaster it could take a person on, but i believe that i live my life in looOoOove everyday but that i can still be practical when i need do. lis. we just match. i couldn't ask for more right now. he's a blessing period. everyday that he's still around i just THANK GOD. life is so beautiful. title or no title, it doesn't matter because we know where we stand. i know there's a fine line between this certain "satisfaction" and the insecurity that creeps up every once in a while... but trusting is always now or never.
and i dont know if you think it just sounds like i'm crazy or that i'm just blinded cuz i'm like head over heels, but i am just living my life. i feel like ME... i can do things that i love, i can talk about things that mean most to me.... and it's not because he makes me feel this way... but it's just the way my life flows with him in it. and of course it's not only how my life is because he's in it.... it's him. it's like him, a real live person...
hahah. i'll stop now. :) i gota do some homework.
hope all is well with you. let me know whats going on. i texted u earlier and u said u were taking care of a few things with sherwin. how's everything going with that? i spoke to jon about a week ago online... he said he'll be there in october yeah? :)
ttyls, Godbless, i love u!
